Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Freedom Writers

Whenever I see this film I get inspired by its meaning, as it tells us that there is no hope to be damaged, I have never seen a film which from time to time I see and get inspired more and more. I just feel like there are more films like it which could be seen, I want to get like this film, it is an inspiring which makes me believe that I have a voice in which I can speak, give my opinion, even to fight inside of me in a way which is quiet that no one knows, to fight to get my rights, even if I get hurt, but to fight. It doesn't have to be a fight in a war, but a fight inside which sometimes I get damaged in life, but this film heals my damage, it makes me want to do something better, to make life better. Like what Mrs Erin did, she first used the old method of teaching without knowing what is going on, till she realised of what is going on, which made her change her way of teaching, to make those students a great students, to live in a home, to be loved, she fought silently. She never took a gun with her to say that they have to do what she wants.NO!
She just changed her ways of teaching into a better way, she helped the students to stand up and talk of what they want to say. To let their voice to be heard, and feel free to what they have in mind.
She didn't like to be racist, she wanted to teach them as equal, from all kinds of color whom she taught she taught them equally. She never gave up of teaching, no matter what happened, no she stood on her two feet, to teach and try to make the students like to come to school, to make them want to study, which she accomplished. I envy her of what she did, normally you would see a teacher who teaches only for the sake of teaching, and not to provide a good teaching way to make the student want to teach, just to say that they have taught the students and nothing else.
In the other hand students are not taking the information if the way of reaching the information wasn't the way which they want, in these days, if you see, most of the students will want to leave drop, because of the way of teaching which makes them take the information in a hard way, which is no use for this generation, the students want to play, to have some entertainment, it is like to take a small child who has started to eat and give him food by force, what will the child do?
Definitely the child will refuse to eat if you give him/her normally, you will have to make sounds, change the routine of giving food so that the child will smile and you put the food in the mouth. With the students it is the same, you will need to change the way, so that the student will eat the information in a way which he/she will be happy, and you as a teacher will be happy that a student wants to learn, wants to come to school to learn, and not skip school.
I don't mean that you will have to make a very easy exam so that the student will pass, no, make the exam paper normally, but when you teach, teach it in a way which it will not be very complicated for the student to eat the information. As there are some students who have difficulty in some studies, but can't talk because they are forced to take these subjects, then if it is like that, try to make it in a simple way to reach the information, so that the student can understand the chapter, and won't have difficulty.
Also some students won't talk that they have difficulty, because of the rest they will be laughing at them because they ask stupid questions to complete their understanding, which makes them don't really want to know because of some of the students who laugh when they ask about these informations, they would be needing to take in a way which makes it easier for them to undersand. Not every student can understand the teachers teaching in one way, every student needs a way to understand, needs a way to clear their doubts.
But all I wanted to say in the end that, I really like to watch this movie, to heal my damage of the fight. To show to people that I still can stand up on my feet even when I am hurt, even if I have lost somethings, but this movie of what I see of the other students who are acting there, they make me feel like my damages are nothing to their damage, they have more damage and they still survive. They still have the courage to complete their life, while I cry that I can't, that I am scared to complete, I am scared to face most of the fights in my life.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

يا مطر

إنزلي يا مطر
مسحي دموع الحزين بالفرح لشوفتك
من زمان ما مريتي عندنا
إنزلي و خلينا نشربك و حن نبتسم من زيارتك
خلي الأطفال يفرحون و هم يلعبون تحتك
يبون يستمتعون
هديهم من صياحهم ترى فالأطفال ما في إلا البراءة
نزلي و فرحي الكبير
يمشي تحتك و هو فرحان
نزلي عشان ما نجف مثل التراب إلي ما يوصله قطرة ماي
نزلي نبى نشوفك
نبى النور يطلع من وجوهنا و حن نشوفك تنزلين
تدرين إنه أحلى وقت في الشتاء شو هو
إنك تنزلين عندنا
عشان يأجزونا و نقدر نشوفك تنزلين و حن نبتسم
و نترك أولادنا يلعبون تحتك و هم يضحكون ببراءة
ترى مو كل مره نشوفك
أنزلي أكثر و خلينا نحس بالماي ينزل فوق راسنا
نقاطك إلي الله سبحانه و تعالى خلقك عشان تروينا و تتركينا نحيا
نزلي و لا تروحين
نبى نشوفك إنتي بس تزورينا مرتين فالسنة و في وقت
حن نباج أكثر تقعدين
نشوفك و إنتي تنزلين
يالله كيف إشتقت إني أنزل و ألعب تحتك و أضحك ضحكة بريئة و إنتي تنزلين فوق راسي
أرجوكي
لا تروحين عنا
جلسي ترى زيارتك غالية عندنا
نزلي و لا تروحين عنا
أبى أصحى على صوتك
يكفي العناء إلي في قلبي
نزلي و خليني أشوفك
أبى أشوفك باكر
عشان أركض تحتك و أرفع راسي فوق و كأني أحاول أشربك
أرجوكي
لا تروحين
شوفي الطفل هذا كيف قاعد يبكي
ما يباج تروحين
و أني بعد
من تنزلين عندنا تكونين شيء ثمين
لأنك مو دايما تجين
هذي توسلاتي و توسلات الصغار
نباج تقعدين و يانا و حتى الكبار يبونك
الأرض من بعد ما يكون صحراء
بعد كمن يوم بنلاقيه أخضر إن شاء الله
من بعد ما سقيتيه بنزولك
هذي تسولاتنا
و إن شاء الله بتبقين لحد باكر معنا


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

الفرقة صعبة

فرقاك صعبه إنت ما أقدر أفترق, أنا نصي منك, تعيش في قلبي, و لا أنساك.
تعرف كيف صورتك ما أنساها, و لا صوتك, و لا ريحة دواك, كانت تميز أول من تفتح باب غرفتك تفوح الريحة فالممر.
ما أقدر أوصفلك حالتي الحين من بعد ما رحت, كل من أتذكر أبى الدنيا تردني للورا, أبى أركضلك, أبي أشوفك, كل من أتذكر الذكريات تألمني بس هذي هي الحياة, أتألم بس أسكت, كم بكيت من شوقي لك, كم مره أبي أصرخ عشان أكلمك, و الله إني أحس حياتي تبدلت, أحاول أعيش نفسي للأفضل من رغم الألم إلي لاحقني, أباك تكون قربي, من أشوف صورتك أتأمل فيك,  ما أقدر إني أقعد أشوف صورتك كمرور الكرام لازم أتأمل لو شفته.
مشتاقه لحنينك, مشتاقه إني أقعد أقرا قصة من إلي إنت كنت تحبهم. من أسمع الأغنية إلي إنت كنت تدمع عشانه أقعد أدمع بعد, لأن أتذكرك صح إني ما أذكر شو إلي صارلك لأن كنت أربع سنين بس أعرف إنك كنت تدمع و إنت تسمع الأغنية.
أسفة لأني قصرت فيك, ووايد بعد قصرت, كل من أتذكر أدمع, قلبي كان قاسي, و الندم ما ينفع بعد فوات الأوان.
فقدتك يا أعز الناس, فقدت شوفتك و إني أقبل إيدك و راسك يا جدي,  لكن إنت الحين في مكان مرتاح, مع حبيبتك و أهلك إلي فقدتهم إلي شفتهم و إلي ما شفتهم, سلم على جدتي, صح إني ما شفتها عمري, بس سلم عليها, تبقى هي شخص محفورة في قلبي رغم إني ما شفتها, بس تبقى في قلبي مهما كان. 

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Smiling behind tears

I smile behind my cry
And laugh behind my tears
Staying alone to  stop hurting
Sitting on my own
Remembering my past
Laughing at the fun in my childhood
While tears dropping as I grow older
Life was easier before
Lots of responsibility in the present
Dropping down the well
While tears drop silently
Catching my breathe
To stop the pain exploding
Learning from past
Waiting for the future

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Expressing

Not knowing how to express my feeling makes me feel akward, all my feelings are usually in writting, not by words because it is hard to explain, but it is easy to write.
Sometimes I would sit and wonder how a writer can write books, lots of chapters, I tried once but to tell you the truth it was a hard time for me, because I usually write short writtings, I think that's why I read kids book, I don't remember that once I got an adult book and read all whats inside, I usually stop in the middle, although I like to read if the book intrests me.
It is nice to read long stories which intrests you, because you will not feel it as a long story, as for what I have experienced from reading a medium book, and especially that I like to read young adults and kids books.
Some they surprise me as they read books for learning vocabulary. Once I was wondering about it, then I asked someone who like to read books, why do you like to read books?
The person replied to me for the sake of learning new words, even if the book they didn't like they would just read it for the sake of learning new words. But to me I will search for the word if it bothers me everytime, otherwise I will read it once then goodbye.
I just wanted to share something with you, as I didn't know what to write, but inshallah soon I will write something.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

يا حسافة


حسافة يا زمن على إلي صار, بعض الرجال ما لهم ذرة أحترام لأمهم و لا لإخواتهم, لو كان فيهم, كانوا بيحترمون البنت إلي قدامهم, كانوا بيعتبرونها مثل اختهم , و لا يقولون شيء قدام الناس عنها مهما صار. لو كان فيهم ذرة إحترام, يا حسافة على هذا الزمن.

ليت الزمن يعود للورا, ليت ارجع لطفلة تلعب و تضحك ببراءة, لا في هم و لا غم, كله لعب و ضحك. ليت الزمن يعود للورا و لا أشوف أشياء تصدمني. صح إني أتعلم, بس أحسن اللعب و لا أفكر بالحياة.