How can I say that you are gone?

How can I say that you are gone, while you are a memory in my mind, I still remember your smell of your room, still remember your sound that I don't want to forget, listen to some songs which reminds me of you, cry in my nights wishing you was here, wishing to run to you and hug like a small child, wishing to see you walk. Wishing to hear you tell me about your life, not just to listen from others, I want to hear it from you.

All though you are gone but I have continued my life, I have seen things which I wish I would have know it from you, not from someone else, I wish that you was here to teach me more about life, but Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala has taken you earlier, has taken you to return you back to him, and us the rest who you are engraved in their hearts continue their life, and see what waits for them.

There are some songs which I can't leave listening to them, as one of them was the song you was tearing whenever you heard it when you was in ICU, I don't remember you being in ICU when I was small, but I have heard that you was there, but I remember two months before you went to Allah's hands, when you was in ICU, I still like to hear those songs which remember me of you, as I can't stop writing about you, I can't stop writing something at least from time to time to you, as it keeps me relaxed. I know those letters don't reach you, but I feel relaxed at least  I am talking to you in a way, I feel like you are only in another country, and that I am sending these letters in a way where it can reach.

I still think that one day you will return, I don't know why, I wish I can talk to you face to face, like a real discussion. I wish I can talk to you and tell you everything which I have learned, done, I wish I can see you even at least in my dreams, at least the way where I can talk to you, feel like you are alive, like you are here in front of me.

I really would wish, but that is life, when someone dies, nothing returns to normal in your feeling, and especially to someone you really really  love a person whom have of your life you stayed with him.