Why do you want me to speak if you don't want to listen to what I say?

Why do you want me to speak if you don't want to listen to what I say, do you think that I always express myself?
I don't I become quiet in expressing myself, I might shout I might act in different way, but I don't tell a person in the face as I don't have the courage to tell, I will let the person be happy, I will go out of their life just to make it beautiful to them, but I won't go and tell of what I feel. It might seem like a weird feeling but it is the truth, so don't be expecting me to tell you in the face of how I feel about you, because I can't, I don't have the courage to tell someone of how I feel about them. So it is better for me to leave your life, and let you complete it in a way which you like and feel better of me not being around to bug you or annoy, or do anything stupid, because after that you will feel sad and angry and me I would be laughing, and you mad for what I did, and I don't want that to happen.